More random words that just come to me...

Soul and substance.
Love and liquor.
What drove me to mix them?
I'd love to blame you and say that you did.
I just wanted to forget that you were only a friend.
That is all you'll ever want to be to me.

You leave me thirsting for a lack of memory.
It has always been her.
I'll to my best and try to drown you in my body.

I'm unaware of any other way to erase you.
My nose filled with your smell hours after you've been around me.
It keeps me from doing what i have to.
From trying to put you behind me.
Such a pathetic attempt to undo it all.